Don't you just love clarity? Doesn't truth settle in your stomach like a birthday dinner? This year, truth came to me via some very hard circumstances but it seemed to taste even better for having walked through. Even though I can still breathe and savour the depths of the truth mined, it can tend to sit flat when put into language ... maybe through amateur ability, maybe because we carry different history. None the less, I will share what I am still getting so much mileage out of even months down the track.
We were created to be enjoyed by Him! Right there that blows me away. But there’s more. He wants us to enjoy Him enjoying us, to feel His pleasure of our pleasure of Him. Confused yet? Makes perfect sense to my heart cause its revelation not just information. Maybe a story will help.
Profoundly whinging to Him one day about how I am to do all He wants [missed truth right there], He tells me to write down what I feel is required of me. I self righteously give him a full page. Now He says to turn it over and write everything I WANT to do.
All my "want to's" have been drowned out by my self perceived "have to's", by my "this will impress thems", by my "that's too out there's" and sometimes by the road of least resistance. I've lost the knowledge of who I am, of what I like or more importantly, of what I love. He then asks me which side of the page He wants me; no desires me to live from. And the Ahh moment hits. He finds pleasure in me finding pleasure in living pursuing Him and Him catching me.
The feeling of a heady romance is birthed. Sure, I don’t live from that truth habitually, YET, but I know that my love hungering heart is gonna trample all over those old habits to get a good dose of enjoyment.
Really, this should have been a no brainer for me. You only need to have a baby to know that we are all over them and they respond inhibitantly with smiles as broad as beans, and bouncing body language to match. Think about what we love about our men the most. When they like what we do, what we say, how we look but the absolute winner is just because who we are.
So here's to new perspective for the new year, for anticipated satisfaction, for fat relationships and for knocking everyone down in my rush to enjoy and be enjoyed.