Death Of A Day

on Wednesday, July 1, 2009

In a rush.

No margin in my life. No room for the spontaneous, for reflection, for living in the moment.

I'm not alone; guilt is my constant companion. She rides me through the ever constant to do's that rule my day sapping joy from work I love.

Sleep, time and quiet become my idols. Grasping and lusting after them only fattens my already obese day as they taunt me, hovering like a mirage on the horizon.

The muscle of perspective needs to be strengthened although not rude, it waits patiently at the bottom of the list.

Always at the bottom.

Til I have the courage to ignore the noise of urgent and focus on the depth of important. Til I slay the habits of culture and embrace the reality of loving the ones I'm with.

To choose to ride the winds of change, floating activity designed to enjoy the hearts in my life and to be content with an unknown destination; not one of my choice, but chosen for me before the conception of my friend time; for a purpose beyond both of us; for His pleasure.

Still now.

Hope grows.

Resolve shackles my trust and faith in the designer of the Big Picture. I surrender to Him the shreds of the precious day He gave me; ashamed at it's eternal waste ...

and yet;

already profoundly forgiven.

"It's useless to rise early and go to bed late, and work your worried fingers to the bone.
Don't you know he enjoys giving rest to those he loves?"
Psalm 127:1b


Warren Baldwin said...
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Warren Baldwin said...

Note: I deleted a previous comment so I could change it a bit.

This is an intriguing post. I know it is the "Death of a Day", but I wondered if it was a metaphor for life? Maybe I'm reading too much into it.

This was a great line: "The muscle of perspective needs to be strengthened." Very well written piece.

I posted a pic on my blog. Thanks for the tag.


Stacy said...

Wow! Your words are amazing and rang so true in my heart---especially 'guilt as a constant companion'. Encouraged by the ending of hope. Thanks for the photo tag---my computer is acting up a bit so a photo may not happen anytime soon. My techno-savvy husband is trying to figure out what the deal is. Have a great week!

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