Reason I Breath

on Thursday, December 17, 2009

Just seems so appropriate to repost my very 1st post which was a piece written 10 years ago, for my 101st post after a 1 year of blogging with almost 100 followers. That's a lot of 1's don't you think? Really bizarre.

A cool breeze pushed through the open kitchen window and I felt it's freshness on my face. Breathing deeply, I drew in the scent of the emerging evening and freshly cut grass, this enticing me to soak up the scene across the valley. Full and low, the sun was now setting red, lighting up the hill across the river. Cows were now rising to graze in the shade, lethargic from a searing summer’s day, their calves dancing energetically to the crickets’ song.

Inside, dinner smells still lingered through the kitchen and clung to my sticky baby who was perched on my lap. He was studying a small piece of paper, clumsily exchanging it from hand to hand and making contented noises. Nestling him in closer to me, my lips and cheek smoothed his downy head. All my senses stood on end; life was wonderful. I felt that small space inside me, which can sometimes feel so empty, burst with a warm fuzziness impossible to verbalize, words not even fringing on description. Closing my eyes, I drew in a deep savoring breath, only then to embrace an amazing sense of Gods presence. Such a feeling of wholeness, such a profound change in my view of life and only after a few minutes soaking up the essence of The One who loves me most.

This brief moment was shatter simultaneously by the sound of wet children running inside from an evening swim, a baby's frustrated squeals to achieve motor skills not attainable by one so young and a concerned alert to a crushed pancake that had annihilated behind the curtain, and Oh! Yes! A new smell had definitely clouded out the grass, the breeze and carefully prepared meal. The contents of a filled nappy jolted me back to the day to day events which busy my life, but now with a softer, gentler, more loving spirit.

Still, did He give me this moment to draw me closer, to fuel desire to seek “His face” or is it maybe possible that He just wanted to be with me be it only a few minutes of my hurried day. Both are likely, though possibly this was the only time all day I took to notice Him. How often I do that; struggle through my whole day alone yet God is right there waiting for me. Just like Peter who, sank when he took His eyes of Jesus while walking on the water, we sink if we don’t look to Him for our impetus in every thought, action and motive.

As the creator of imagination, He won’t always use cows, breezes and babies to catch our attention. Looking at Him and to Him always, He won’t become small or insignificant and comprehension will explode in our hearts of who He actually is; our creator, our all consuming fulfillment and our very purpose of life. We are to Him the object of His enveloping affection. He made us for Himself and when this fact takes root, we will hungrily seek Him and find ourselves in that sweet place of His presence way more than just a few stolen moments.

Seek my face [inquire for and require my presence as your vital need]. My heart says to You, Your face (Your presence), Lord, will I seek, inquire for, and require [of necessity and on the authority of Your Word]. - Ps 27:8 amp


Sniffles and Smiles said...

Simply beautiful!!!! Your description puts me in your shoes...and I am experiencing His presence in this moment with you!!! A very fitting post!!! Congratulations on your one year blogiversary!! You have achieved much in a very short period!!!! Kudos to you!!! You are inspirational!!!! Love you so much! Janine XO

Brian Miller said...

sometimes its in those peaceful moments...sometimes it is in their shattering that He finds each we seek...congrats on 101 posts, that is awesome! keep em coming!

Beautiful Mess said...

Love the way you write what you write so I can feel what you feel!

Beautiful! Happy to meet you!


S. Etole said...

"We are to Him the object of His enveloping affection." That is always such good news!

sherrinda said...

Beautiful post! I hope to capture the essence of this holiday season and feel His presence continually! Thanks for a wonderful reminder!

Growin' with it! said...

"Looking at Him and to Him always, He won’t become small or insignificant and comprehension will explode in our hearts of who He actually is" that sincerely touched my heart tonight. beautiful post.

Angie Muresan said...

Thank you for stopping by Sandra. I truly admire you, not just as a woman and mother of ten, but that you love God so much and dedicate your life to Him. I am so glad you stopped by. Have a blessed weekend!

Warren Baldwin said...

Some good reasons to breathe! I esp appreciate this one you gave: "We are to Him the object of His enveloping affection." I've read that everyone needs someone who totally delights in them (Larry Crabb in Connecting). We all have that in God. Good post. wb

Patti Lacy said...

Since I didn't have the pleasure to read your blog a year ago, this was wonderfully lyrical and heartwarming.

Oh, how I love your writing.

Keep on capturing your life on cyberpaper.

Sniffles and Smiles said...

Just thought I'd stop by to wish you a Merry case I don't "see" you between now and then...Sending you all my love and best wishes!!! Enjoy that wonderful family of yours. You are ALL in my thoughts~Janine XO

chili pepper said...

I wanted to stop and make sure you knew that today is the DAY... make sure you stop by my blog today for the story you have been waiting for.

Happy Day!


Deb said...

Your words.


Make me hungry to sit with Him.

Let Him empty me of my everydayness.

Fill me with His presence.

Miraculous. Isn't it?

Merry Christmas, Australia...I'm loving getting to know you. You have a way with words.

Sweet dreams.

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